Careless Chapter 2

Chapter 2

So all 4 inner selves and Mother Goose enter this cave like opening , dark and hollow, and proceeded in quite a merry looking fashion when all of a sudden, they sunk, well more like dropped, into the ground. And if you were to look into what they dropped into, it would be like looking down from the top of a tunneling water slide that goes around. Except that it wasn't water that was causing the flow.
It was more of a stream-like looking bright turquoise flow of something not quite liquid or gas. And this flowed with much grace and gentleness , it actually looked like soft after-feathers constantly growing from the rachis, in an underwater-y way.

So this ride went on for a few minutes, quite comfortably as you may imagine. You could sit down and extend your elbows backwards into a lean while looking up into something shining but dark at the same time, and if I could ever put this shining object into simple words, it would be called, 'the dark side of the sun'.

Mother Goose was sitting down on her sideway-folded legs in a lady-on-a-Sunday-picnic-like way while Naught had her head on her lap chatting about something a mother and daughter might chat about on a Sunday picnic. Work was studying the substance they were riding on and wondered how this could contribute into forming ideas. Conscience was stroking the feathers and humming a praise and worship song while appreciating and being grateful for the comfortable ride. Ego was standing up and looking forward, hands folded, into the distance, looking rather moody and thoughtful.

Then, they all plopped into a standing position and proceeded walking without interruption, as if they weren't aware the ride had ended.

"Well, here we are."said Ego

There was a huge box looking building, having the same measuring characteristics as a standing closed book. Tall and slender on one side and wider on the other.

"So that's the ab then, is it? It doesn't look like a place where you inner selves might bee happy living in, if i say so myself!" said Mother Goose

"We have roomates." conscience innocently mentions. "Well sometimes, at least.

"That's...very nice, conscience darling." coos Mother Goose. "Right then, perhaps we should go in and say hi. It's getting a bit cold out here"

Ego lead the way.

To be continued....

Today's Commandment

Thou Shalt Follow The Links....
and doeth what the video info commands of you.

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Unsecured Loan The Movie;
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Careless...

I don't really know what it is, exactly, but that's a way to describe how my moods have been these few days..Careless, not as in a klutz kinda careless..but more of the unconcerned negligent careless.. I do not have this urge to want.. Thus in short, I do not 'want'.. .want being the verb here..


I find that I have been indifferent to almost everything I use too care so much about... Individuals, physical needs, variety, colours, joy, comfort, least of all, things.. Everything seems to be fading somehow,even more now.. I do not wish for it to fade, but it just does despite my futile meek mental protests.. Everything is clouded by this haze of "lack" itself.. Well, everything but my work, which seems to be the only burning flame I have left in this often raining weather.. so the only thing left to do is to hold on to it like no other, because I cannot go on flameless, not now.. The funny thing is, this only thing keeping me sane is probably the very same thing that will cost me my sanity , if overdone..


Do you know what I mean?


Despite my deranged detachment from the side of me that consists most of my emotions, I continue to stay sane by working (this is easy due to the fact that I am highly passionate in my field).. but you get this feeling that if you continue to try to stay sane by working and working and working and it's the only thing you ever do, you, will, unfortunately, but, inevitably, break..
I know this, you know this, everybody knows this.. So what does one do about it?


'Well, first of all, you shouldn't have made 'work' your life line now, innit, you sorry ass excuse of insanity?'

...says my alter ego...


'Maybe, you need to find a way to rekindle your flames and find joy, and love and make up for all that you've lost and the people you left behind. This is not totally about you, it's also about the people around you.'

...says my diplomatic-idealistic-church-going conscience...


'You need to shut your pie-hole and get back to work!!!'

...says the newly-formed-perasan-workaholic-inner-nerd....


'I think you just need to get laid~~~'

....says the hedonistic naughtiness....


'How about everybody just shuts up, and let the poor dear let her feelings out however way she feels most comfortable in? She's obviously going through some things.'

...says Mother Goose....


'Mother Goose?? What are you doing in this mind???'

...exclaimes the hedonistic naughtyness...


'I, am here to help, obviously. Seems like the mess isn't going to clear itself up now is it? You aren't even trying to really help, Naught, and put on some pants, for God sakes!'

...Mother Goose collects them up and shoos them away with her thick British accent....

'Where's the rest?'


'....I think they're in the ab....'

says conscience


'Ab? What's that, then?'


'The 'Away Box'. She's made this compartment to put us all in and picks us up if she needs us at any time. She hardly ever comes to pick us up now. Some of us just barge into her face, it's really distracting, personally,I find.'

Mentions Work, while glaring at Naught ...


Naughtiness then turns and lifts her half buttoned down make shift pyjama that was obviously once a man's shirt right above her left but cheek and says,

' Find this, nerd!'

' Children, children! Let's just all go back to the ab then, I need to speak with all of you, however many you may be now. She really needs to stop making new habits and better the old! Really! How does she manage all of you barging in and out of her mind like that!

...Mother Goose then bustles them away from the frame ......


- To be perhaps continued..

absence....

here is my explanation for my absence and this really short post;

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=10304646778


busy busy busy!


Meanwhile, eveything's pretty fine with me:)

Ok, back to work!

From India, With Love

Despite the unoriginal and boring title, i am having a wonderful time in India!
And yes, I am currently in Chennai since the 11th, if you didn't know.

I'm priviledged to have Kuhan's family's hospitality here. And so far, Chennai has been illuminating. The colours for the local bazaar are absolutely amazing! And it's not as filthy as I've been told. I mean, I probably expected much worse but the living condition I'm exposed to so far isn't horrible at all. We have similar types of filth in Malaysia. Except maybe we don't see and smell ppl's pee in the streets as often. But then, I suppose being in the upper middle class society might offer a better view of India. Ofcourse I do see the hardships of the locals. However, there's definitely a huge gap between sympathizing and relating to.

On a lighter note, I will be leaving for Bangalore tomorrow and Goa 3 days after and I'm absolutely excited out of my wits! Can't wait for some sun and sea and sight seeing~ It's really too bad I can't upload any photos here. The USB on this computer isn't working. So until I find one that does, use your imaginations k:) Till then!

gastrorgasms

Last night I have had the pleasure of having my friend Chris dining with me in Heritage Row. We were at Mezza Notte, a very nice Italian restaurant cum sushi bar. This, ladies and gentlemen, is an experience I have to share. For this, was the first time ever i have experienced orgasmic sensations with the first bite of dessert.

Let me introduce to you, the heavenly Tortino De Ciocolato. A frosted chocolate cake so divine, it has a rich melting center that when combined with the vanilla ice-cream and strawberry on the side, the experience is absolutely tantalizing! I swear to God the effect is immediate. Once the combination hits your taste buds, your orgasm starts and continues to flow gently down your throat leaving a favourable after-taste of warm strawberry puddings and melting vanilla ice-cream by the cosy warm fire in the winter.



It was unfortunate that I was unable to take more pictures as I was too high on Tortino De Ciocolato that I felt I was in Heaven with every bite. It didn't even feel sinful, it felt so pure and so right. Suprisingly, the richness didn't leave a lethargic aftereffect (with dinner beforehand, mind you) like how all chocolate cakes seem to overdose on sugar and cream and cocoa. The richness was light enough to keep asking for more and more and you eventually let your mind wonder of chocolate heaven during the day. This is definately the best dessert I have ever had.


Shadowed by the Tortino De Ciocolato, was the delightful Frozen Cappuccino shaped into a charming cup. It was basically quality cappuccino coffee with a pastry handle, topped with cappuccino cream. Absolutely charming!




I will definitely be going back to Mezza Notte for another affair with my latest infatuation, the Tortino De Ciocolato:)

devirg.INK.nization

Today was a good day compared to yesterday. No, it was great. Involving important things surrounding me; Work, personal life, food:) Here's the best part, I have finally, after all these years of wanting, got myself inked! I started with a small and timeless design, to test water la right. See if I am able to tahan the pain. Got fucking excited for my first, and still smiling about it too. The artist who inked me is tattoo extraordinaire Jap Loh hailing from Singapore. I've seen his excellent work of art on other people, it somewhat seemed trivial to ask him to do mine. So next time, I'll definitely opt for something more personal and elaborate, which btw, I already have in mind :3